I'm back from my trip, had a good time, but I don't feel like talking about it since it isn't important to me anymore.
I returned home to an email informing me that Gelli's (my good friend) sister had passed away. Her sister Daisy was about 2 years older than me and she died of Cancer over the weekend. Getting this news sent a shock in my body and felt it drained me of will and energy.
I attended the wake and the funeral the last two days and I cant believe she is gone. Come on she was only 2 years older than me!?!?!?!? I sat in the pew at the church service thinking of all the things I want to accomplish in my life and have not done, life is short and I don't want to go away not living life to my fullest.
I love Gelli so much and seeing her cry I just wanted to scoop her up and cradle her like a baby, I wanted to make the pain go away, I wanted to be the superhero that would make everything better, but I couldn't, all I could do was hug her.
Since my dad passed away I have become antifunerals. I wish not to see the coffin, and wish to stay as far away from everyone at church. I do this because it brings back the pain I suffered when my papi passed away and I hate remembering those sad feelings. Eventhough I say I'm antifunerals, I still go to them out of respect to the person and the family.
Thursday, December 22, 2005
Friday, December 09, 2005
In less than 24 hours I forget about the snow.
I never drive when it is snowing out. I have been this way for about 10 years now and I still cant kick the habit. Yesterday the total accumulation for the O'Hare area (where I work) was 6.5 inches, other parts of the city like Midway got 10 inches.
Well, since I no longer have the multiple transportation options I had when I worked in Evanston I have to drive or walk eternal miles to the train station from my work. So rather than walk in deep snow without any snow boots I decided to drive. Yes I drove in the snow for about to big 2 blocks before I said "chingada madre I'm dumping Bessie (mi carro)and taking public transportation"
Why?
1 I don't drive in the snow
2 I was going no where fast
3 I had only move 2 blocks in the 40 minutes
So what I did was head to my boyfrieds house in Park ridge and park Bessie in the driveway and walk to the Cumberland L.
My total commute yesterday home was about 2 1/2 hours!!! I have never been stuck in traffic that long in my life. I was always able to get home in 25 minutes by car, 30 minutes if I took the metra, 45 minutes if I took the L or 45 if I biked to work.
Now my commute is 2 1/2 hours during snowstorm and about an hour and 15-20 by train and 2 busses.
What the hell did I get myself into!!
Well for now I'm forgetting about the snow and instead I'm thinking tropical. I'm leaving on my trip tomorrow to all those sunny little islands in the Caribbean. So let it snow for the time that i'm not here.
It's 5pm and my vacation starts now!!!!
Well, since I no longer have the multiple transportation options I had when I worked in Evanston I have to drive or walk eternal miles to the train station from my work. So rather than walk in deep snow without any snow boots I decided to drive. Yes I drove in the snow for about to big 2 blocks before I said "chingada madre I'm dumping Bessie (mi carro)and taking public transportation"
Why?
1 I don't drive in the snow
2 I was going no where fast
3 I had only move 2 blocks in the 40 minutes
So what I did was head to my boyfrieds house in Park ridge and park Bessie in the driveway and walk to the Cumberland L.
My total commute yesterday home was about 2 1/2 hours!!! I have never been stuck in traffic that long in my life. I was always able to get home in 25 minutes by car, 30 minutes if I took the metra, 45 minutes if I took the L or 45 if I biked to work.
Now my commute is 2 1/2 hours during snowstorm and about an hour and 15-20 by train and 2 busses.
What the hell did I get myself into!!
Well for now I'm forgetting about the snow and instead I'm thinking tropical. I'm leaving on my trip tomorrow to all those sunny little islands in the Caribbean. So let it snow for the time that i'm not here.
It's 5pm and my vacation starts now!!!!
Tuesday, November 22, 2005
My Christmas wish list
If you were to ask me what I want for Christmas I would say the following.
Remember in no particular order I would love:
1.New running shoes
2.The book Good In Bed By Jennifer Weiner (my favorite Book)
3.A gym bag with just enough room for gym clothes and shoes and maybe a towel
4.An IPOD It doesn't need to be a fancy smanchy one just one that does the job (keeps me entertained at the gym) Oh and it has to have the music set up in it
already. Have fun!
5.A CD with old school jams on it, either done yourself or bought at the store.
Would like the CD mix to have artist like Al Green, Stevie wonder, Aretha to name a few
6.Charlie and the chocolate factory DVD (2005 edition)
7.Sex in the City DVD any season will do. I just started to catch the reruns on Channel 9 and it's a pretty good show too bad I just tuned in.
8.The graduate DVD I loaned My friend Darlene this movie and I never received it back.
9.Carmen Electra's Aerobic Strip. Maybe this will be an exercise I stick to.
10.Gift card to Target for books. Borders and Barnes are way to expensive and I'm a chepO.
11. A nice watch.
I'm sure that in the next couple of weeks I will update this list. Stay tuned.
Remember in no particular order I would love:
1.New running shoes
2.The book Good In Bed By Jennifer Weiner (my favorite Book)
3.A gym bag with just enough room for gym clothes and shoes and maybe a towel
4.An IPOD It doesn't need to be a fancy smanchy one just one that does the job (keeps me entertained at the gym) Oh and it has to have the music set up in it
already. Have fun!
5.A CD with old school jams on it, either done yourself or bought at the store.
Would like the CD mix to have artist like Al Green, Stevie wonder, Aretha to name a few
6.Charlie and the chocolate factory DVD (2005 edition)
7.Sex in the City DVD any season will do. I just started to catch the reruns on Channel 9 and it's a pretty good show too bad I just tuned in.
8.The graduate DVD I loaned My friend Darlene this movie and I never received it back.
9.Carmen Electra's Aerobic Strip. Maybe this will be an exercise I stick to.
10.Gift card to Target for books. Borders and Barnes are way to expensive and I'm a chepO.
11. A nice watch.
I'm sure that in the next couple of weeks I will update this list. Stay tuned.
Monday, November 21, 2005
Barbados
I'm off on my next trip next month to Barbados. Looking for forward to some rest and relaxation. It is a 7 day cruise to Barbados, St Lucia, Granadines,Martinique, granada, St Vincent. I hope not find out that I get seasick on boats
It hit me just the other day, vacation equals bathing suit. HELP! I need to tone up!
I have always fought with the scale I have never been able to wear a bikini nor have I missed it but I have always wanted to have a choice on the type of bathing suits.
Well I started going to the gym to shed a pound or 2 for next months trip. I hope I don't become anorexic or bulimic in the process. Just kidding! I love to food too much to waste it.
It hit me just the other day, vacation equals bathing suit. HELP! I need to tone up!
I have always fought with the scale I have never been able to wear a bikini nor have I missed it but I have always wanted to have a choice on the type of bathing suits.
Well I started going to the gym to shed a pound or 2 for next months trip. I hope I don't become anorexic or bulimic in the process. Just kidding! I love to food too much to waste it.
Monday, October 17, 2005
Tragic news hit a bit too close to home
Late last week I awoke from a peaceful sleep hearing BANG BANG BANG BANG BANG! Yes they were gun shots, for a minute I thought they were coming from inside the house because I heard them laud and clear. My alarm clock said it was 205am and I sat up in bed listening for movement from within the house. I heard my mom and brother talking so I realized it was not from the house but the gun shoots were shots very close to home. I did thanked God that my bedroom faced an apartment building and not the front street or back alley simply because we have all heard of what stray bullets can do to innocent bystanders. I went back to sleep because I heard my brother on the phone with the police to notify them of the shoots heard.
In the morning I headed as usual to work not remembering the incident of a couple of hours before until my sister called and asked if I had heard what was going on last night. I told her what I heard and what I had done (went back to sleep) and in turn she told me that someone was shot and killed and that it was only 5 houses away.
OH MY GOD!
Was is a gang banger or an innocent bystander? I wondered.
Today I got the answer
My mom always seems to befriend total strangers on the street and today she befriended a lady who said she lived in the neighborhood for some 16 years and is now getting out because of what happened. The lady told my mom that the guy (must be 35ish or so) who was killed was the homeowner and that his nephews had had some sort of argument with some gangbangers in the neighborhood and I 'm guessing they retaliated.
I think every neighborhood in the city has it's issues with crime and violence, even it's upscale and hot areas like the gold coast or Lincoln park. I want to stay in my neighborhood, Albany Park I love the diversity of it, the proximity to the airport, expressway and lake. I love it and wish not to move from it, but with my mom getting older she is getting a little fearful.
What do I say what do I do? This happens everywhere we can only run from it for so long.
When we moved into Albany Park 15 years ago it was a war zone. The gang banger had no fear of anything, they would walk and shoot in broad daylight when kids where getting out of school. It was a pretty scary year. I thought to myself "man, my parents really bought a house in the hood." Along the years things got better. We have not had much trouble But is this a sign of what's to come? I hope not. I fear a little simply because I could have been coming home at that time, my brother , my mom someone that I care for could have been it.
In the morning I headed as usual to work not remembering the incident of a couple of hours before until my sister called and asked if I had heard what was going on last night. I told her what I heard and what I had done (went back to sleep) and in turn she told me that someone was shot and killed and that it was only 5 houses away.
OH MY GOD!
Was is a gang banger or an innocent bystander? I wondered.
Today I got the answer
My mom always seems to befriend total strangers on the street and today she befriended a lady who said she lived in the neighborhood for some 16 years and is now getting out because of what happened. The lady told my mom that the guy (must be 35ish or so) who was killed was the homeowner and that his nephews had had some sort of argument with some gangbangers in the neighborhood and I 'm guessing they retaliated.
I think every neighborhood in the city has it's issues with crime and violence, even it's upscale and hot areas like the gold coast or Lincoln park. I want to stay in my neighborhood, Albany Park I love the diversity of it, the proximity to the airport, expressway and lake. I love it and wish not to move from it, but with my mom getting older she is getting a little fearful.
What do I say what do I do? This happens everywhere we can only run from it for so long.
When we moved into Albany Park 15 years ago it was a war zone. The gang banger had no fear of anything, they would walk and shoot in broad daylight when kids where getting out of school. It was a pretty scary year. I thought to myself "man, my parents really bought a house in the hood." Along the years things got better. We have not had much trouble But is this a sign of what's to come? I hope not. I fear a little simply because I could have been coming home at that time, my brother , my mom someone that I care for could have been it.
Monday, October 10, 2005
The smelly dog
The smell of burning rubber all over the house was what I came home to on Saturday. It turns out the DOG got skunked. Yuck Yuck Yuck If you have never smelled skunk in your house consider yourself LUCKY! It smell like ASS!
I searched on the net for some quick remedies and many were saying to use tomato juice. Tomato juice doesn't work! Well kind of we bathed the dog with shampoo and tomato juice and I guess it managed to tone down the smell a bit but it didn't kill it. So after so many baths the doggie now smells like baby powder a smell I could live with.
The smell is still faintly lingering in the house and i'm trying to kill it with candles and smelly cleaning products, it'working.
I searched on the net for some quick remedies and many were saying to use tomato juice. Tomato juice doesn't work! Well kind of we bathed the dog with shampoo and tomato juice and I guess it managed to tone down the smell a bit but it didn't kill it. So after so many baths the doggie now smells like baby powder a smell I could live with.
The smell is still faintly lingering in the house and i'm trying to kill it with candles and smelly cleaning products, it'working.
Thursday, September 22, 2005
Can the bride PLEASE make up her mind!!!!!!
After 2 weeks and maybe 4 trips to several Bridal shops, I think I'm done. I'm done and tiered of my best friend not being able to choose from the many many many dresses she has seen and tried on. Come on, you want detail I have given you details, you want sparkles? I have found dresses with sparkles, you want boob action in your dress , I have found that too. After awhile all the dresses start to look the same. Help!
One of the stops we made on our Bridal shopping trip was to http://www.houseofbrides.com/home_frames.htm>House of Brides I love this store, there is a great variety of dresses to choose from and believe it or not the prices are not bad at all. The only thing I don't like about this place is that the bridesmaids dresses would be delieved in 4-6 months! We (the bride and I) don't really want to take our chances and have any of 10 bridesmaid dress screwed up so we are not going with them. I also when to http://search.bbb.org/results.html
and found a shit load of complaints against them.
We have also checked out http://www.davidsbridal.com/index.jsp
from bridesmaid dresses and wedding gowns and we have been satisfied. Yes My buddy hasn't been able to find a wedding dress and decide on our bridesmaid dresses but have been satisfied, there dresses only take 4-8 weeks for delivery
One of the stops we made on our Bridal shopping trip was to http://www.houseofbrides.com/home_frames.htm>House of Brides I love this store, there is a great variety of dresses to choose from and believe it or not the prices are not bad at all. The only thing I don't like about this place is that the bridesmaids dresses would be delieved in 4-6 months! We (the bride and I) don't really want to take our chances and have any of 10 bridesmaid dress screwed up so we are not going with them. I also when to http://search.bbb.org/results.html
and found a shit load of complaints against them.
We have also checked out http://www.davidsbridal.com/index.jsp
from bridesmaid dresses and wedding gowns and we have been satisfied. Yes My buddy hasn't been able to find a wedding dress and decide on our bridesmaid dresses but have been satisfied, there dresses only take 4-8 weeks for delivery
Friday, September 09, 2005
The Maid of Honor.
I'm the maid of honor for my best friends wedding next year. I'm excited and feel privileged to have been chosen. Although I'm afraid that with all the assistance I'm giving her (The Bride) it might make me feel envious that I'm not walking down the aisle.
Friday, August 19, 2005
Soy la de la mochila azul
I rode my bike to work today. I'm serious $3 bucks a gallon has made me do that. Why not? I need the exercise anyway. For those driving GIVE THE BIKER THE RIGHT OF WAY!
Wednesday, August 17, 2005
Where have I been the last 3 weeks?
Yesterday, I was driving south on Western Ave when I came across a gas station selling gas at 3.00 bucks a gallon! I guess I haven't noticed that the cost per gallon has come up that high because I have not pumped gas in over 3 weeks. I have allowed my sister use my car and asked her to return it with a full tank and I'd be happy. So Tuesday the first day I have pumped gas in about 3 weeks I paid $39 bucks to fill my cavalier. Today I rode my bike to work
12 miles round trip to mi casa and work.
12 miles round trip to mi casa and work.
Friday, July 29, 2005
The original dancing queen revisited
I went out last night, yes it was a school night, yes it was a Thursday and yes I had to work in the morning. It has been awhile since I have gone out with the gang alone, usually I'm accompanied by my boyfriend but last night it was just me. No one to hang on to, no guarantee of a conversation, no security, just you and yourself. I felt a bit out of the loop. I need to jump in again and stop just getting my feet a little wet.
I was the original dancing queen back in the day, the girl who could should up to a club or bar by herself with no issue and cares. Times have changed and I have changed, no tengo esa confiansa en mi mismo para ser como era antes. Como quiero ser esa dancing queen que salia del club cuando amanacia la luz del dia. Donde se vue esa chica?
I have been told that my wild side has become so reserved. I'm not a prude but that I'm hiding. I will agree that I have been hiding myself, things have changed.
There are many things I want to do with myself. The first go out with the girls and feel comfortable having a good time. I want to travel to Hawaii, why should I have to wait for my honeymoon? I want to be more independent and secure with myself.
I was the original dancing queen back in the day, the girl who could should up to a club or bar by herself with no issue and cares. Times have changed and I have changed, no tengo esa confiansa en mi mismo para ser como era antes. Como quiero ser esa dancing queen que salia del club cuando amanacia la luz del dia. Donde se vue esa chica?
I have been told that my wild side has become so reserved. I'm not a prude but that I'm hiding. I will agree that I have been hiding myself, things have changed.
There are many things I want to do with myself. The first go out with the girls and feel comfortable having a good time. I want to travel to Hawaii, why should I have to wait for my honeymoon? I want to be more independent and secure with myself.
Friday, July 15, 2005
What a perfect night
After getting off of work on Monday, I headed home thinking of a perfect way to head to Ravinia on the cheap. I didn't want to pay $7-10 for parking and I was broke anyway so I came up with the following... I parked my car at the Ravenswood Metra stop and took the Ravinia Express train which left at 6pm
Once I boarded the oh so crowded train I found a seat and prepared my $3.00 in change to give to the conductor. Well 4 or 5 stops later we arrived at Ravinia and no conductor ever came by to collect $ Awesome, I thought this is the 2nd time ever I get on the Metra for FREE! YAY!
Once at Ravinia I was lured by the female giving out FREE "Time out" magazines YAY! I was actually going to buy that issue but didn't have to now. Okay once I got over the free shit portion of the day I scanned for a nice spot to plop my genuine Mexican blanket on and wait for the 4 amigos. Soon after they arrive with the cooler filled with sandwiches, wine and BEER!
This was one good night!
Once I boarded the oh so crowded train I found a seat and prepared my $3.00 in change to give to the conductor. Well 4 or 5 stops later we arrived at Ravinia and no conductor ever came by to collect $ Awesome, I thought this is the 2nd time ever I get on the Metra for FREE! YAY!
Once at Ravinia I was lured by the female giving out FREE "Time out" magazines YAY! I was actually going to buy that issue but didn't have to now. Okay once I got over the free shit portion of the day I scanned for a nice spot to plop my genuine Mexican blanket on and wait for the 4 amigos. Soon after they arrive with the cooler filled with sandwiches, wine and BEER!
This was one good night!
Monday, July 11, 2005
Never ending weekend cont.
TONIGHT TONIGHT TONIGHT
Wyclef Jean at Ravinia!
I will check him out , should be agood time.
Wyclef Jean at Ravinia!
I will check him out , should be agood time.
Never ending cultured weekend
I had a great weekend. On Saturday I headed to the Irish American Heritage festival (no , I'm not Irish but my boyfriend is) We chatted with friends and enjoyed some great music. We then headed to Chief O'neils on Elston (still trying to keep the Irish thing going) We left a bit after 2 in order to avoid the L.A.T.E Ride bikers.
I dropped his butt at home he wanted me to stay over but I kinda wanted to see the biker pass by my house so I left. It was almost an eternity to get to my house early Sunday morning. Foster was blocked off and the cops were not allowing anyone cross on Kedzie, I mean come on I was 2 blocks from my house. So I had to get creative I took some side streets and went the wrong way down a street(Hey it was 4 in the morning no one is out)Finally making to Kedzie and sat for about 5 minutes waiting for a pockect of no riders to cross Kedzie and finally made through. As I sat there I was a bit envious of those rider I wanted to do the L.A.T.E. ride. I did the ride 2 summer ago and had a great time once we were able to pass the congestion downtown, maybe next year.
Sunday BJ and I rode to the lake to see our all time favorite band (J/K) General Patton and his privates. They were playing for the Peace fest/Weed fest had a good time. As we sat enjoying the show 2 chicks came up to use to ask if we would take a survey and it paid, no it wasn't a sex survey but and actual study. The chicks said they were from the U of I campus focusing on Latinos, exercise and the lakefront.
In order to get paid we have to wear some sort of monitor that records your activity and calories burn for 7 days send it in and collect a check, that's it.
BJ's friend Smooth D came by and convinced me to jump in the lake with the clothes I was biking in at first I declined but as I saw how much fun BJ and smooth D were having I jumped in and enjoyed it. I loved it, yes it was a bit crazy , crazy for my standards but it was FUN. At the lake while waiting a bit to dry off we had some elotes con todo including chile. Yum Yum !
After we rode to the Old town school of Folk Festival on Lincoln Ave and Montrose.
BJ and I had a dilemma It was 5 bucks to get in and we were down to our last 5 bucks so we scanned the area to see were the weak points of the festival were aka we wanted to sneak in, and found NOTHING. We sat near the festival entrance debating if we should pay our last 5 bucks or get something to eat and there a weak spot in the fortress the guy who monitored the exit stepped away for like 3 minutes and BJ and I looked at each other and decided to break in and we made it. BJ then had another dilema buy a beautiful necklace with a school or eat she made the right choice eat , she had something creek and I had a pina colada for $4. I still have a buck in my pocket. Well we went to Wells park to see OZOMATLI the greatest band ever and thats no joke. They played an awesome set and BJ and I had a great time. Once over we headed home on our bikes and went mimi aka sleep.
I dropped his butt at home he wanted me to stay over but I kinda wanted to see the biker pass by my house so I left. It was almost an eternity to get to my house early Sunday morning. Foster was blocked off and the cops were not allowing anyone cross on Kedzie, I mean come on I was 2 blocks from my house. So I had to get creative I took some side streets and went the wrong way down a street(Hey it was 4 in the morning no one is out)Finally making to Kedzie and sat for about 5 minutes waiting for a pockect of no riders to cross Kedzie and finally made through. As I sat there I was a bit envious of those rider I wanted to do the L.A.T.E. ride. I did the ride 2 summer ago and had a great time once we were able to pass the congestion downtown, maybe next year.
Sunday BJ and I rode to the lake to see our all time favorite band (J/K) General Patton and his privates. They were playing for the Peace fest/Weed fest had a good time. As we sat enjoying the show 2 chicks came up to use to ask if we would take a survey and it paid, no it wasn't a sex survey but and actual study. The chicks said they were from the U of I campus focusing on Latinos, exercise and the lakefront.
In order to get paid we have to wear some sort of monitor that records your activity and calories burn for 7 days send it in and collect a check, that's it.
BJ's friend Smooth D came by and convinced me to jump in the lake with the clothes I was biking in at first I declined but as I saw how much fun BJ and smooth D were having I jumped in and enjoyed it. I loved it, yes it was a bit crazy , crazy for my standards but it was FUN. At the lake while waiting a bit to dry off we had some elotes con todo including chile. Yum Yum !
After we rode to the Old town school of Folk Festival on Lincoln Ave and Montrose.
BJ and I had a dilemma It was 5 bucks to get in and we were down to our last 5 bucks so we scanned the area to see were the weak points of the festival were aka we wanted to sneak in, and found NOTHING. We sat near the festival entrance debating if we should pay our last 5 bucks or get something to eat and there a weak spot in the fortress the guy who monitored the exit stepped away for like 3 minutes and BJ and I looked at each other and decided to break in and we made it. BJ then had another dilema buy a beautiful necklace with a school or eat she made the right choice eat , she had something creek and I had a pina colada for $4. I still have a buck in my pocket. Well we went to Wells park to see OZOMATLI the greatest band ever and thats no joke. They played an awesome set and BJ and I had a great time. Once over we headed home on our bikes and went mimi aka sleep.
Tuesday, July 05, 2005
Drama for your Mama
I had a great time this weekend surrounded by family and friends. There was one incident or shall I say DRAMA that happened and guess who was in it? YES ME!
I attended Aunt Mae's July 3rd party and there was an obnoxious guy, Gilbert. I would describe Gilbert as an OBNOXIOUS FAT DRUNK FUCK. I maybe said 2 words to him Hi and bye the entire day, Anyway I had gone out to the car to get my swimsuit when out of nowhere Gilbert flicks me with water and mumbles something. I in turn tell him "Your ass needs to calm down" as I pour my miller lite on his face. Well you would think this obnoxious FAT DRUNK F. Gilbert would get the picture right? He didn't he proceeded to rub himself and lick the beer from his face in a nasty way.
I under stood he was drunk and it wasn't a big deal to me. He just touched a nerve when he flicked water, listensing to this man talk for 8 hours about everything he didn't know, I guess ballooned to me pouring beer on him.
We have all been obnoxiously drunk at one point, I know I have and many buddies have forgiven me for stupid shit that came out of my ass but this guy is the KING OF Obnoxious fat drunk fuck's.
Back to Gilbert, he came into the house where Aunt Mae was and started to whine about what happened and called me a bitch. I wasn't in the room , so I wasn't aware of this till the end of the night. Aunt Mae decided to kick his ASS, just kidding! She spoke, he argued and there was going to be a FIGHT, A FIGHT ,but the kiddies got in it and he was asked to leave.
The funny thing is that I never said anything to anyone about this , Gilbert dug his own hole because he is an OBNOXIOUS FAT DRUNK FUCK!
I attended Aunt Mae's July 3rd party and there was an obnoxious guy, Gilbert. I would describe Gilbert as an OBNOXIOUS FAT DRUNK FUCK. I maybe said 2 words to him Hi and bye the entire day, Anyway I had gone out to the car to get my swimsuit when out of nowhere Gilbert flicks me with water and mumbles something. I in turn tell him "Your ass needs to calm down" as I pour my miller lite on his face. Well you would think this obnoxious FAT DRUNK F. Gilbert would get the picture right? He didn't he proceeded to rub himself and lick the beer from his face in a nasty way.
I under stood he was drunk and it wasn't a big deal to me. He just touched a nerve when he flicked water, listensing to this man talk for 8 hours about everything he didn't know, I guess ballooned to me pouring beer on him.
We have all been obnoxiously drunk at one point, I know I have and many buddies have forgiven me for stupid shit that came out of my ass but this guy is the KING OF Obnoxious fat drunk fuck's.
Back to Gilbert, he came into the house where Aunt Mae was and started to whine about what happened and called me a bitch. I wasn't in the room , so I wasn't aware of this till the end of the night. Aunt Mae decided to kick his ASS, just kidding! She spoke, he argued and there was going to be a FIGHT, A FIGHT ,but the kiddies got in it and he was asked to leave.
The funny thing is that I never said anything to anyone about this , Gilbert dug his own hole because he is an OBNOXIOUS FAT DRUNK FUCK!
Monday, June 27, 2005
Sadness
I feel blue today and I don't know why. It's a beautiful day and haven't had any issues today. I'm guessing that the pain in my leg is getting to me. I'm in pain, the pain that effects your well being. I guess I just found my cause.
Friday, June 24, 2005
VALIDATION
Today at lunch as I made a quick buy at CVS in Evanston, the girls at the counter where talking about the Dunkin Donuts located at the Davis St. L stop.
She asked her coworker if she had seen the new shop?
Girl 2 said no and didn't know what she was talking about. So at that point I joined the conversation with Girl 1
I told her that I found it nasty and I couldn't put the two things together.
Girl 1 said I can see them putting a convenience store or a little pop and candy store but Dunkin Donuts?
I said I know and left it at that.
proof that I'm not the only one that sees something wrong with that.
She asked her coworker if she had seen the new shop?
Girl 2 said no and didn't know what she was talking about. So at that point I joined the conversation with Girl 1
I told her that I found it nasty and I couldn't put the two things together.
Girl 1 said I can see them putting a convenience store or a little pop and candy store but Dunkin Donuts?
I said I know and left it at that.
proof that I'm not the only one that sees something wrong with that.
Thursday, June 23, 2005
El Tren
So I have been riding the "L" this week and boy has it changed. I will say the last time I rode the train for more than a week period had to have been at least 8-10 years ago.
Did you know they have a Dunkin Donuts at the Davis Street station? It's kind of disgusting actually. All I could think of was smelly urine, sorry the smell of fresh brewed coffee had not hit my big nose that morning. I mean the Dunkin Donuts could be a great place to catch something on the go, but at the L? I cant seem to add the two together. It's only logical that they would go together but they cant sell to this baby. Ok, maybe if I was really really hungry and I was in a hurry.
On the Brown line on Kedzie there is a guy who gives you the Red eye for free. Yes I know they are free to begin with but he actually stands there and gives them to you. You don't have to open a newspaper box and get it yourself. I like that.
When I decided to take the train to work for a week I thought I was going to be able to finish my book Playing with Boys but nooooo I have been to distracted by everything new along the Brown line, Red line and Purple line.
I have come to the conclusion that I should take the train more often to change the routine a little. I should sacrifice (is sacrifice the right word?) my personal space (my car) for a day or two a week for a crowded CTA train.
Sorry I'm not used to this. I have also found that I get motion sickness on the train. I swear I grew up in the city have lived here all my life. I not a whinnying suburbanite, but I might just act like one on this post.
Did you know they have a Dunkin Donuts at the Davis Street station? It's kind of disgusting actually. All I could think of was smelly urine, sorry the smell of fresh brewed coffee had not hit my big nose that morning. I mean the Dunkin Donuts could be a great place to catch something on the go, but at the L? I cant seem to add the two together. It's only logical that they would go together but they cant sell to this baby. Ok, maybe if I was really really hungry and I was in a hurry.
On the Brown line on Kedzie there is a guy who gives you the Red eye for free. Yes I know they are free to begin with but he actually stands there and gives them to you. You don't have to open a newspaper box and get it yourself. I like that.
When I decided to take the train to work for a week I thought I was going to be able to finish my book Playing with Boys but nooooo I have been to distracted by everything new along the Brown line, Red line and Purple line.
I have come to the conclusion that I should take the train more often to change the routine a little. I should sacrifice (is sacrifice the right word?) my personal space (my car) for a day or two a week for a crowded CTA train.
Sorry I'm not used to this. I have also found that I get motion sickness on the train. I swear I grew up in the city have lived here all my life. I not a whinnying suburbanite, but I might just act like one on this post.
Friday, June 03, 2005
Playing with Boys
I'm currently reading "Playing with Boys" by Alisa Valdes Rodriguez and found the following paragraph to ring true, atleast for me.
A character in he book was asked if she was married. She answered No, but was really thinking.....
"I'm heading on thirty and still can't find a man who can stand me. I'll never have children unless it is through surgical intervention. I am thinking the best remedy for all of this is to adopt three hundred cats, one for each pound I plan to weigh soon because I cant seem to stop spooning cookie ice cream into my gaping maw thanks to my increasingly realistic fear of being single forever, Amen.
couldn't have said it better myself. Check her out at http://www.alisavaldesrodriguez.com/
A character in he book was asked if she was married. She answered No, but was really thinking.....
"I'm heading on thirty and still can't find a man who can stand me. I'll never have children unless it is through surgical intervention. I am thinking the best remedy for all of this is to adopt three hundred cats, one for each pound I plan to weigh soon because I cant seem to stop spooning cookie ice cream into my gaping maw thanks to my increasingly realistic fear of being single forever, Amen.
couldn't have said it better myself. Check her out at http://www.alisavaldesrodriguez.com/
Thursday, June 02, 2005
And now..
I spent my birthday just like I wished for, con amistades. We had Tapas and Sangria for dinner at Tapas Barcelona, after we headed to Tommy Nevins. Had a couple of Martinis and hung out with the drunks of downtown Evanston.
People did ask about A. My answer to this burning question was "He isn't here, draw your own conclusion" One of my best friends "Annie Oakley" spent much of the night telling me how beautiful I am and assuring me I will find someone else, because who wouldn't want to date me. Don't answer that! She also at one point told her hubby to repeat all these nice ego busting comments to me, he refused and told her he was now a married man and he cant say things like that about me and or any other female but his mujer. Awwww what a sweet and smart man.
People did ask about A. My answer to this burning question was "He isn't here, draw your own conclusion" One of my best friends "Annie Oakley" spent much of the night telling me how beautiful I am and assuring me I will find someone else, because who wouldn't want to date me. Don't answer that! She also at one point told her hubby to repeat all these nice ego busting comments to me, he refused and told her he was now a married man and he cant say things like that about me and or any other female but his mujer. Awwww what a sweet and smart man.
Wednesday, May 11, 2005
It's my birthday!
Today I officially turned 28 and I don't seem to like that number. I guess at this age I shouldn't worry, I should probably start to worry when I'm 40 or something (no offense to any 40 year olds)
I set up a get together to celebrate my birthday this weekend. I'm sure that at that time I will hear the same recurring question, Where is A? I honestly don't know what my response will be or should be, Do I break down and cry? Do I say he is out of town? What do I say? I want that night to be fun surrounded by my close friends. I hope I can achieve that nirvana Saturday.
I set up a get together to celebrate my birthday this weekend. I'm sure that at that time I will hear the same recurring question, Where is A? I honestly don't know what my response will be or should be, Do I break down and cry? Do I say he is out of town? What do I say? I want that night to be fun surrounded by my close friends. I hope I can achieve that nirvana Saturday.
Tuesday, May 10, 2005
Bono made me do it
I saw U2 last night at the United Center, it was a great show. I was a bit disappointed they didn't play more of there older stuff, but overall it was a great show.
Seeing Bono last night, made be go back in thought about my last relationship. I was dating S for about 4 years in love and planned to marry. Well, things didn't work out that way, his family became involved and he chose his family and a mail order bride instead of me. I remember telling S one night about a great dream I had the night before. The dream was with Bono, Bono and I made the most passionate love together. Well, he became very upset, he found it disrespectful and disgusting that I had dreams like that. Doesn't everybody have a dream like that now and then? I found his reaction to be silly and soon after that we broke up.
Fast forward to the present.
I'm not dwelling on the past when I say this but Bono made me do it.
Last night I had a talk with my boyfriend A and it didn't go well. I'm a bit obnoxious loud, pushy, quiet, shy, center of attention and obsessed with having a good time all rolled up in one. I guess yesterday he was not in the mood for his little taco, ME! I asked him why he was acting the way he was? He wouldn't say anything, he wouldn't answer. I think he was shocked that I actually didn't let this drop. Finally he decided to open his mouth and make words come out of it. We talked and cried together, in the end he/we decided he should go find himself, take a sabbatical because he is the one with the issues and not me, He always led me to believe it was me or at least made me feel it was me.
I let it all out, I actually told him what I wanted.... Love, sex, xoxo, squeezes, touch, understanding, ability to compromise, marriage and children, you know, the basics.The stuff that true and great relationships are made of.
I had contemplated this conversation for a couple of weeks now and understood what the consequences could be and I'm ok with the outcome. I will never deny that I love him and can see myself spending the rest of my life with him, but he has the issues and I want to move forward, I'm not a spring chicken anymore. I miss him, it's only 11:20am and I'm so thinking of him.
Bono made me do it.
Seeing Bono last night, made be go back in thought about my last relationship. I was dating S for about 4 years in love and planned to marry. Well, things didn't work out that way, his family became involved and he chose his family and a mail order bride instead of me. I remember telling S one night about a great dream I had the night before. The dream was with Bono, Bono and I made the most passionate love together. Well, he became very upset, he found it disrespectful and disgusting that I had dreams like that. Doesn't everybody have a dream like that now and then? I found his reaction to be silly and soon after that we broke up.
Fast forward to the present.
I'm not dwelling on the past when I say this but Bono made me do it.
Last night I had a talk with my boyfriend A and it didn't go well. I'm a bit obnoxious loud, pushy, quiet, shy, center of attention and obsessed with having a good time all rolled up in one. I guess yesterday he was not in the mood for his little taco, ME! I asked him why he was acting the way he was? He wouldn't say anything, he wouldn't answer. I think he was shocked that I actually didn't let this drop. Finally he decided to open his mouth and make words come out of it. We talked and cried together, in the end he/we decided he should go find himself, take a sabbatical because he is the one with the issues and not me, He always led me to believe it was me or at least made me feel it was me.
I let it all out, I actually told him what I wanted.... Love, sex, xoxo, squeezes, touch, understanding, ability to compromise, marriage and children, you know, the basics.The stuff that true and great relationships are made of.
I had contemplated this conversation for a couple of weeks now and understood what the consequences could be and I'm ok with the outcome. I will never deny that I love him and can see myself spending the rest of my life with him, but he has the issues and I want to move forward, I'm not a spring chicken anymore. I miss him, it's only 11:20am and I'm so thinking of him.
Bono made me do it.
Wednesday, April 06, 2005
Vacation time where are thou?
I have survive yet another buy out at my current employer and it sucks!.
Our company was owned my a major media company but since it was and is doing poorly it was sold to a little company that probably attained it fairly cheaply, maybe on clearance?. Besides being owned by 4-5 different companies in the last 4 years and going through 3-4 lay offs. I think the buck stops here they are messing with my vacation time, sick and personal days.
We no longer have personal days available and we need to accrue our vacation and sick time before we can use it. Who does that anymore? (don't answer that, I'm venting) Well this company doesn't offer personal time and has cut the number of sick days. What the hell!?
The buck stops here, I'm out of here. Need a new job!
Our company was owned my a major media company but since it was and is doing poorly it was sold to a little company that probably attained it fairly cheaply, maybe on clearance?. Besides being owned by 4-5 different companies in the last 4 years and going through 3-4 lay offs. I think the buck stops here they are messing with my vacation time, sick and personal days.
We no longer have personal days available and we need to accrue our vacation and sick time before we can use it. Who does that anymore? (don't answer that, I'm venting) Well this company doesn't offer personal time and has cut the number of sick days. What the hell!?
The buck stops here, I'm out of here. Need a new job!
Tuesday, April 05, 2005
Always the bridesmaid
I was thinking the other day..................................................... What is 3 years in a relationship for a 28 year old female? A long fucking time, time is ticking and I want to settle down and stop running around with the boys.
My boyfriend doesn't seem to be making a move so I think I should make one for both of us. I love this man and love his company but there is something that isn't there. Maybe a ring? LOL.
One of my good friends is getting married this weekend and I'm part of the bridal party. I'm happy for her and her new endeavor but feel a bit salty. I don't want to be the bridesmaid anymore I would much rather be the blushing bride. I'm the last of my friends who have no kids, no husband and no divorce. I try to think of the upside, at least I have loved and been loved as much as I have loved. Do I make sense with that last sentence? I don't think so.
It's a beautiful day here in Chicago and I don't want the above to damper my day so I needed to confess my sins, oops! I mean my feelings to someone or something that wont judge. Well,atleast to my face. =) My sins will be later.
Have you ever loved someone you cant have?
My boyfriend doesn't seem to be making a move so I think I should make one for both of us. I love this man and love his company but there is something that isn't there. Maybe a ring? LOL.
One of my good friends is getting married this weekend and I'm part of the bridal party. I'm happy for her and her new endeavor but feel a bit salty. I don't want to be the bridesmaid anymore I would much rather be the blushing bride. I'm the last of my friends who have no kids, no husband and no divorce. I try to think of the upside, at least I have loved and been loved as much as I have loved. Do I make sense with that last sentence? I don't think so.
It's a beautiful day here in Chicago and I don't want the above to damper my day so I needed to confess my sins, oops! I mean my feelings to someone or something that wont judge. Well,atleast to my face. =) My sins will be later.
Have you ever loved someone you cant have?
Friday, March 25, 2005
Why does this keep happening?
Why does this continue to happen? I'm not a radical pro life person. I'm pro choice!
Don't tell me what to do with my body and I wont tell you what to do with yours. I'm just disgusted by the headlines recently of newborns being killed. What the Hell is going on?
http://www.chicagotribune.com/news/local/chi-050325baby,1,2660380.story?coll=chi-news-hed
Don't tell me what to do with my body and I wont tell you what to do with yours. I'm just disgusted by the headlines recently of newborns being killed. What the Hell is going on?
http://www.chicagotribune.com/news/local/chi-050325baby,1,2660380.story?coll=chi-news-hed
Thursday, March 24, 2005
Missing my papi
If you know Spanish you probably thought "Oh no another blogg about an ex" Well that's not the papi I'm referring to. I'm referring to mi papa, mi apa, my dad, the old man. I miss my Dad and after 4 long years I still miss him.
I still find myself yelling for him when I get home "apa, apa, apa" but he never answers. I don't expect him to answer, I just miss having those words come out of my mouth. I will never have the chance to say "apa" ever again. I hate the reality of it!
The reason why this entry was triggered was due to taxes, yes I said taxes. I'll explain.
Last night I was doing my taxes and I got to the part where the IRS asks.... Do you want to contribute to?......
Wildlife foundation, MS , breast cancer and so on. Well, they didn't have Prostate Cancer on there this year. I usually donate to the Prostate Cancer fund and it wasn't on there. So my 3 bucks went to Multiple Sclerosis and I was left thinking about my dad.
I miss him very much.
I still find myself yelling for him when I get home "apa, apa, apa" but he never answers. I don't expect him to answer, I just miss having those words come out of my mouth. I will never have the chance to say "apa" ever again. I hate the reality of it!
The reason why this entry was triggered was due to taxes, yes I said taxes. I'll explain.
Last night I was doing my taxes and I got to the part where the IRS asks.... Do you want to contribute to?......
Wildlife foundation, MS , breast cancer and so on. Well, they didn't have Prostate Cancer on there this year. I usually donate to the Prostate Cancer fund and it wasn't on there. So my 3 bucks went to Multiple Sclerosis and I was left thinking about my dad.
I miss him very much.
Friday, March 11, 2005
I need to Vent!
Yesterday there was a report of yet another newborn baby killed by their mother. Hearing this pisses me off! I don't know why I get like this, I guess I really do have a heart.
The usual reactions given by most people to this type of news is a comment, "how sad and Why?" then they turn the channel. This issue is really bothering me, I guess because of all the recent cases in the Chicagoland area of newborn baby's being thrown out windows, washed in hospital linens or simply thrown in the trash. I'm tiered of hearing such bad news.
There is a law in the state of Illinois, it allows mothers to leave their newborn baby's (up to 3 days after birth) at a hospital, police station or fire department with out criminal prosecution. Let me scream this from high above the Sears tower I THINK THIS IS A GREAT LAW! ! ! !
The problem is, it's not working that well! ! ! !
Why isn't it working? Maybe these women are not aware of this law, Maybe they are afraid that this law will prosecute? I really don't know! I was thinking the other day how can we make this law well known or publicize it more? I have the perfect solution to this. The solution targets almost everyone from different demographics and income. Why? Because the majority of people do this.
Ready for the answer????????????????????????????????????????????????????
Why don't we have a PUBLIC SERVICE ANNOUNCEMENT during the adds or trailers at a movie theater? Think about it, Before a movie starts you are already sitting there your watching adds for doctors, Dentists, bookstores, restaurants and why not this too! It targets everyone because everyone goes to the movies, most everyone arrives early for a great seat.
Maybe the people are not aware that this law does exist, this would be a perfect opportunity to expose this law.
Has no one thought of this? Do you think it will work ? Any ideas?
The usual reactions given by most people to this type of news is a comment, "how sad and Why?" then they turn the channel. This issue is really bothering me, I guess because of all the recent cases in the Chicagoland area of newborn baby's being thrown out windows, washed in hospital linens or simply thrown in the trash. I'm tiered of hearing such bad news.
There is a law in the state of Illinois, it allows mothers to leave their newborn baby's (up to 3 days after birth) at a hospital, police station or fire department with out criminal prosecution. Let me scream this from high above the Sears tower I THINK THIS IS A GREAT LAW! ! ! !
The problem is, it's not working that well! ! ! !
Why isn't it working? Maybe these women are not aware of this law, Maybe they are afraid that this law will prosecute? I really don't know! I was thinking the other day how can we make this law well known or publicize it more? I have the perfect solution to this. The solution targets almost everyone from different demographics and income. Why? Because the majority of people do this.
Ready for the answer????????????????????????????????????????????????????
Why don't we have a PUBLIC SERVICE ANNOUNCEMENT during the adds or trailers at a movie theater? Think about it, Before a movie starts you are already sitting there your watching adds for doctors, Dentists, bookstores, restaurants and why not this too! It targets everyone because everyone goes to the movies, most everyone arrives early for a great seat.
Maybe the people are not aware that this law does exist, this would be a perfect opportunity to expose this law.
Has no one thought of this? Do you think it will work ? Any ideas?
Wednesday, March 09, 2005
The beat goes on for the Lolo monster
The beat goes on is my first entry ever on this thing people call a blog. I'm sitting at work bored as hell looking for a piece of good reading material,I'm not saying I haven't found anything good on these blogs, but I guess I want a little piece of this too.
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