I came home to bad news

I'm back from my trip, had a good time, but I don't feel like talking about it since it isn't important to me anymore.

I returned home to an email informing me that Gelli's (my good friend) sister had passed away. Her sister Daisy was about 2 years older than me and she died of Cancer over the weekend. Getting this news sent a shock in my body and felt it drained me of will and energy.
I attended the wake and the funeral the last two days and I cant believe she is gone. Come on she was only 2 years older than me!?!?!?!? I sat in the pew at the church service thinking of all the things I want to accomplish in my life and have not done, life is short and I don't want to go away not living life to my fullest.

I love Gelli so much and seeing her cry I just wanted to scoop her up and cradle her like a baby, I wanted to make the pain go away, I wanted to be the superhero that would make everything better, but I couldn't, all I could do was hug her.

Since my dad passed away I have become antifunerals. I wish not to see the coffin, and wish to stay as far away from everyone at church. I do this because it brings back the pain I suffered when my papi passed away and I hate remembering those sad feelings. Eventhough I say I'm antifunerals, I still go to them out of respect to the person and the family.

In less than 24 hours I forget about the snow.

I never drive when it is snowing out. I have been this way for about 10 years now and I still cant kick the habit. Yesterday the total accumulation for the O'Hare area (where I work) was 6.5 inches, other parts of the city like Midway got 10 inches.

Well, since I no longer have the multiple transportation options I had when I worked in Evanston I have to drive or walk eternal miles to the train station from my work. So rather than walk in deep snow without any snow boots I decided to drive. Yes I drove in the snow for about to big 2 blocks before I said "chingada madre I'm dumping Bessie (mi carro)and taking public transportation"

Why?
1 I don't drive in the snow
2 I was going no where fast
3 I had only move 2 blocks in the 40 minutes

So what I did was head to my boyfrieds house in Park ridge and park Bessie in the driveway and walk to the Cumberland L.

My total commute yesterday home was about 2 1/2 hours!!! I have never been stuck in traffic that long in my life. I was always able to get home in 25 minutes by car, 30 minutes if I took the metra, 45 minutes if I took the L or 45 if I biked to work.
Now my commute is 2 1/2 hours during snowstorm and about an hour and 15-20 by train and 2 busses.

What the hell did I get myself into!!
Well for now I'm forgetting about the snow and instead I'm thinking tropical. I'm leaving on my trip tomorrow to all those sunny little islands in the Caribbean. So let it snow for the time that i'm not here.
It's 5pm and my vacation starts now!!!!