Cuando era chica

Cuando era chica, recuerdo que me hacia la dormida en diferente lugares de la casa. Me hacia la dormida en el piso, debajo de la mesa y en el sofa. Yo hacia eso para que mi papa me cargara y me llevara a mi cama. Me encataba sentir el abraso que me daba cuando me recogia. Me sentia segura y amada por el y mi mama. Les digo esto porque recientemente mi mama en platica conto de esto. Yo todos estos anos pensaba que ellos creian que dormia, pero no, siempre sabian que me hacia la dormida, que me gustaba que mi papi me cargara. I thought I was slick but they knew all along. I actually thought they never realised it.I cant get over it. I guess when your 5 or 7 you cant be the greatest actress, yet.

I miss my dad and the cd I love to hate that I recently bought reminded me of him.
Luther Vandross. Dance with my father.

I need to write a bit more in espanol, para que no se me olvide
La lolo monster
The lolo monster

Friday evening....

No, i'm not going out, nor am I staying in or will I have a drink.
I have to work tonight. It's ugly outside so that means that my shift will be longer than usual due to the rain. THANKS MOTHER NATURE!!!!!!!!

Almost done and over with

Yay for me!! I'm done with my courses, I only need to fufill the clinical aspects for my cetificate. For over 3 months now I have worked full time and gone to school full time. I haven't the slightest idea how I made it through, but I have. There has been things that I have negleted or have negleted me.

I miss my friends a lot, I miss my family, I miss my beauty rest, I miss my vacations, I miss everything from the past.

I have lacked sleep and have been depressed at times and have wanted to quit everything all together too. Thabk goodness my brain has not allowed me and my body to shut down,yet.

One of the best things that has happened through all of this is that I have lost weight. I lost 25 pounds in a little more than 3 months. I joked with my teacher one day about that. I told her that I always thought that eating right and being active would aid in weight loss, but I was wrong. I told her that all you need to loss weight is a full time job, go to school full time and lack sleep, that's it!

I'm now 10 pounds short of what I was 4 years ago. I'm happy to gloat that many of my jean no longer fit!!!!!! The bad thing is that I have to shop, I'm not a shopping type of girl, I would prefer for someone to find me the clothing based on my taste and for me to say YAY or NAY. In other words a personal shopper. My sister loves to do that for me.

Anyways, I'm still working but have a more leisure pace lifestyle. I have to fufill 120-160 hours at the hospital to complete my certificate. I have 6weeks to do that, and I was told that if need be I could take a little longer!!!! Yay! I will definantly take a longer time than usual to fufill that requirement.

I hope to soon have my life back. Which means Getting a job with normal working hours 9-5pm and having the relationships I have had with others again.

SO pray for me and wish me luck!

Thanks!
lolo monster

Have you ever...

Wanted to take something back? This weekend I attended a wedding with my bf and his coworkers. My bf works for a snotty bank downtown. BF and I were having a great time dancing and mingling. Yes I did drink and I guess the drinks got the best of me.

At the end of the night, I was still standing and functional. It was when we sat down in the lobby that it hit me. I headed to the bathroom to take care of business. I guess I was in there a little longer than usual when one of his female coworkers came in to check on me. By the time she came in I had already puked, I puked.

No one was in the bathroom when I puked, but they knew. Was it the smell? I think so. They told me that B was getting us a room and we were staying over night, I was like no way, we cant do that we are 15 minutes from home. We stayed at the hotel and slept there was no way of getting out of that one.

As I dozed in bed, I could hear a couple get off the elevator yelling and screaming. I remember telling my Bf that we must be on the domestic violence floor and to call the cops. Seriously they were yelling and slamming doors.

Bf said lets not get involved, I'm like hell yah we are (member I'm wasted) he's like lolo go to bed. I with the little once of energy told him call the cops. He didn't and that was it. I doubt anybody called the cops or did anything cause I never heard anything after. I hope that nothing terrible happened.

I never want to party with uptight bankers ever in my life. I'm sure bf is never going to hear the end of this from his coworkers.

Lacking sleep but still ticking.

In the last 4 and1/2 weeks I have been working full time and going to school. I'm running on 4 hours of sleep a night, well actually a morning. I found a job which is good and bad for me. You know the obvious reasons why.... I get no sleep, I don't see anybody but my coworkers and classmates, I have been dubbed the sleeping giant(I'll tell you later) and last but not least I don't see my BF as often as I would like too.

I quit my job in February because it was going no where. I enrolled in school full time in order to do something that I enjoy. Since then I have been living on my savings, which about a month ago started running low . I had to get a job, there was no way around it. I applied to several places, went on many interviews and no luck. Finally, I applied at a medical lab and got the job.

When I started the lab job I thought I can stay there a year, save some cash, have the company pay for some courses, I can do this. I found out quick that it isn't that easy working 2nd/3rd shift and getting to class at 9am.

I'm trying my best to keep up with this and have always said if school begind to suffer I will quit my job. So with that in mind I'm saving $ $ and thinking about my future. I never never want to work 2/3rd shift hours again in my life. I will try my best to hold on till January, then I'm off.

(My niece has dubbed me the sleeping giant because on Tuesdays I have class in the afternoon and she tells everyone "Dont wake the sleeping giant" I guess I have snapped once, ok twice on people who have not allowed me to sleep till 2pm on that day. People walk around the house TOO LOUDLY for this sleeping giant)

New year but same o shit

So Saturday night I headed out to Rush and Division for a night of drinking, dancing and cheap sex. Ok, so I kid about the cheap in cheap sex, my boyfriend is not cheap.
Anyway we headed to a bar called shenanigans and enjoyed some dancing and drinking. My boyfriend paid for a couple of shots of Petron cause he lost a bet.

The reason why we made the bet was because... His best friends Fiance always seems to have a headache when she is around us. Always has a headache, she doesn't interact with us at our get togethers or parties cause she always has an ache in her head. At first I though maybe she is stressed, it's her work ,she's a lawyer. So I thought it was her work. Well I bet my bF that she would have a headache that night He bet me shots of Petron. Well what happens when we get to her place? She starts to tell us, how she was cleaning the oven earlier that day when she began to have a HEADACHE! She said it was a chemical headache. BF thinks that didn't count, I think it did so I got a couple of shots of Petro, Yay for me!

My next encounrter with her will be next week when we hit the town for her bachlerotte party. I bet you she wont have a headache that night cause she will be with her girlfriends and not her fiance;s friends us.

Well after spending time at shenanigans we headed to Mothers. I like Mothers it is cheap and sleazy. ;) My BF and I dance like a dirty couple. In the end we left when they closed. We headed to our non favorite $3.oo A taco stand with the rest of the drunk folk. While in line I was met up with a guy who was reading the plams of the guys behind me. The guy who was from Egypt was telling the dude that he is always broke and that he needs to stop having his friend cover him. The Guy that was broke said the Mr Egypt was right. So I tool I asked Mr Egypt to read my palm. Mr Egypt looked at it and said, you have come closed to being married in the past and due to his family's objections it did not go through, he said that my career path is the right one and that $$$ will be good and plentiful. He also said that he doesn't not see me getting married anytime soon. I kept asking him when did he see me married and he never answered. All of the things he told me was true. I never feed him any information everything was true. He even read my BF palm and everything was true there too. We thanked the Mr. Egypt for his time and let him enjoy his hotdog in peace. Once we walked out we realized what time it was. It was 6am the light of day was on us. I was like what the FUCK? It has been a LOoooooooong time since I have been out so late/early. I could not shut up about the fact that it was 6am and I was just getting in and we were taking the train.....

I had a good time that night and I won a couple of shots.

Done and over with!!!

This weekend was my best friends wedding and it wasnt as bad as I thought it would be. The day started on Saturday when I went over to my friends house so she could do my nails. I love her so much cause she did my nails for free!!!!!! YAY MARIA!!On to Sunday I ran over to mi primas house to fix my hair, for FREE!!! YAY!!!! FREE!! She also did my makeup YAY!!!! FREE!! Remember I'm broke and have not had an income since February and I'm still kicking.Ok it wasnt totally free I gave her $10 bucks she didnt ask for it but I gave her what I could.

Anyway all that stuff and getting ready thing went smothly. I had my bf drop me off at my best friend's house (Bride) Now there is where the chaos began. TOO MANY PEOPLE IN ONE PLACE!! Everthing went ok It should have been alittle smoothered.

As we headed to the church in the trolly we were listening to "going to the chappel and were going to get married" It was nice. The bride was so happy, you could tell!

The mass was nice and quick, pictures were not. There was too many people in the bridal party to move around into position, there was more than 14 people to boss.
SO it was slow and HOT!!!

At the reception I was a HAPPY DRUNK. I'm sure people thought that I was high or something cause I was a happy drunk, everything made me happy, people I had never met people I had not seen in awhile, everything and everyone made me happy. It was great!

My mom told everyone to stop drinking cause I guess we were all happy drunk. I didnt listen I still drank but not in front of her. Also The lolo monster dancing queen came out again. I was trying all the line dancing songs, It was great!!!!!

I'm going to sugggest that we do this again.

BTW I chickened out of my speech....... I had prepared one that envolved me singing....but I got a little nervous and I didnt do the singging but I did do the speech.

I was happy to be the happy drunk!!!!

My best friends wedding

My Best friends wedding is in a week and I'm still in search for a hairstylist. Now I know you would say to yourself no big deal, right? WRONG! I quit my job about 4 months ago to go back to school full time and the little savings I have is quickly dwindling. I'm holding on to my last $300 bucks! and that money is for MY expenses and cant afford to use it on my hair. Yes I have plenty of credit on my credit cards but that is not the answer.

As the maid of honor for "Curly Q" I have to have my hair done, there is no going around it. I have asked my cousin who is not a professional hairstylist but I know can make me look fabulous for free to do my hair. But she might be going to visit family in Indiana that weekend to show off her new baby girl. I don't want her to stay benind for me, but I do. So now I'm looking for someone who could do my hair for free or super cheap and on a Sunday morning, Memorial Day weekend!!

HELP! That is not the last of my worries. I have to make a speech in honor of the bride. How the heck am I going to do that? What do I say? What if I get really really nervous and puke while I'm in the spotlight! I'm nervous!

Well the upcoming week will be a tough one for me because I have so much to do and figure out. Did I mention I'm taking the firefighters exam this week? I have always wondered if I was firefighter material and I guess will find out.

And I have a job interview this week, Hopefully that will turn out great. I need a job this 4 month vacation has come to an end!

Numero 29

Last weekend I celebrated my birthday party at exodus, a reggae club in Wrigleyvile.
I had a great time, no I didn't get wasted! Just hung out with friends. This is a place I will definantly come back to, it reminded me of the islands. I miss the islands, which I could go back soon.

Oh how things have changed !!!!!

The things that have changed since quitting my job....

Unable to get my nails done a couple of times a month.

I have to let my hair grow and extra inch or two before I cant get it cut.

I cant get my hair colored every 2-3 months! ! ! ! !

I cant shop on the spur of the moment.

I have a lot of time for the gym!! No more excuses!!!

I BROWN BAG IT!!!! I have never brown bagged it in my life! Favorite motto now is "If it aint in my brown bag, I cant eat it" I have lost 6 pounds with the new motto!

I cant get fast food or tacos unless I make it at home.

I'm spending more time with my family

I'm in school full time

don't spend time with friends

I use my CTA pass more than I did in the last 2 years combined.

I cook

I'm on a budget!!!

The worse one of all is NO VACATIONS FOR ATLEAST A YEAR unless your paying for it.

These are some of the changes in my life. For the most part they are good changes with the exception of the no vacation thing and hanging out with friends.

8K completed, little less than 5 miles in 1 hour 15 minutes

There are something's I have always wanted to do but didn't have the guts to complete or was lazy to do. Well, today I completed one of those things, I ran the Shamrock Shuffle.

My partner in crime Mai and I have always said we would do it but never got around to sign up and this year was the one. We decided to sign up last month only to find out that the sign up was closed for any new registration. I was ok with it, you know, not run and stay home and wish that I signed up the week before, Not Mai. She told me we would run it anyway just join the pack at 930am at the starting line and meet at the finish line, just like everyone else. We did just that this morning and ran with everybody.

I almost gave up at the beginning, Columbus St. Is a steep hill climb and it was nothing like the treadmill at the gym, but I kept going cause everyone else kept going. At the 4k mark I almost gave up cause it seemed never ending. Finally at the 7k mark I saw a happy ending and looked forward to the cheers from the spectators at the finish line.

I'm so happy!! I actually completed something that I though I would never be able to complete. Here is a secret...... I have always wanted to run the Chicago marathon (26 miles) but I know that, that would involve enlisting the help of a drill sergeant, my brother and he is a tuffffffffff guy to train with! He has ran the marathon several times before and he would definently like to see me more in shape and do something with him that he loves. MAYBE ONE DAY SOON

Update

I know I have been absent from blogging for some time but I was compelled to write today.

I quit my job back in February and have been in school full time since. It is something that I have though about for a very long time and for various excuses I never did quit my job and go back to school. I'm so happy I did. Yes, since I'm in school full time I have no income! ! Since I had though about doing this for some time I did save a little, not much but little. Soon the time will come where I will need to get a job, an overnight job. I'm a reluctant to do that cause I love my sleep but to quote my boyfriend "SUCK IT UP" true I will suck it up and do it.

I spent a looooooong time at my old job cause it was comfortable, short commute, easy, and the pay was not bad. I was actually bored unappreciated and stupid. I did learn a lot while there but should have quit a long time ago.

I'm happy now. I will be doing something I love, I will enjoy going to work and actually do some interesting stuff. Yeah I'm broke but I know this will be temporary for now and I'm actually ok. MY car payment ends in JUNE! YEAH FOR ME! ! ! That is a big monthly expense for the price of little Bessie.

Quick update

It's been a month or so since coming back from my 7 day cruise and I seem to be quickly forgetting it, so I will write about it.

Barbados a beautiful island, just perfect enough to start giving you that island feel.

St Vincent, Oh St Vincent I didn't really enjoy this island, there were plenty of things to do but you had to hire a cab to take you to and from, for about $50 bucks or so. I said nope, this was our 2nd day on the trip and that can add up. So we took the convis with the local people to the beach for 25 cent instead. Not a bad deal. Oh and as soon as it became dark we headed back to the boat, didn't feel too safe there.

Bequia, I'm in love with Bequia. If I ever decide to runaway from life you can find me there. The people are so friendly and I loved the experience of my first water taxi ride straight to the beach. The little boat would drop you off at the beach and pick you up right on the beach, I love it!

Martinique, people seemed no to want to speak to you if you didn't know French. It was the most difficult island to maneuver cause of the language thing. I did find out while at a restaurant that Le Poissone is not Poison but Fish :) Call me a dumb American but seeing it on a menu didn't seem too appetizing.

Granada, hustler city. As soon as we got off the boat we were surrounded by people who were trying to sell us aromatic spices and tours. People there weren't the friendliest. The city is gorgeous.

St Lucia this would be the 2nd place you should look for me if I ever decided to run away. The beach, sun,people all bring it to a close 2nd for running away to.

There you have it a quick tidbit on one of many little trips.

BTW I quit my job to go back to school. My posts will be less often than they are now. Will try my best to write if you care.

I cant wait for my next trip THE FRENCH RIVIERA! but that wont be till next year, till then money will be tight and I will be working hard to stay alive.
Thanks and see you all on the flip side!