Playing it safe!

I have always played it safe with everything in my life. I have always followed the law and the rules. With that I'm going to do something stupid.

My friend who I really really love! Called me today. He is in Ecuador and needs some $$$. Tropic Thunder has been there since late November. I have missed him dearly since then. I have gone through detox from him and his body.

He has called me several time since he has been in Ecuador, but have always missed his calls so I have had a relationship with his voicemail.

I spoke to him yesterday and was soooooo happy to hear from my baby. He told me that he will be returning to Chicago next week. I told him that I missed and and cant wait to see him. i swear Tropic Thunder had me jumping up and down after we hung up. This man drives me crazy.

Today I wake up to a voicemail, it was him, asking me to call him back. I had a feeling what it was for. I thought maybe he needed me to pick up something in Chicago or from his home. Well, he asked me for $$$

He continued to explain why and when he would pay me back even after I told him I would send it. I think he thought it would be harder to convince me.

He knows that I'm not working and cant borrow $ but I'm lending it to him. I calld this a stupid move and would have said nooooooooo but I'm not. I'm not going to play it safe this time, I'm letting my feelings guide me instead of my brain.

He calls when he needs money and I say ok. LOL I'm so stupid!

So with that i'm off to Western Union to wire $$$ to Ecuador.

I say i'm so stupid cause he has been gone for almost 3 months and have only spoken to him twice since he has been gone and those 2 calls have been in the last 2 days. Me nace darle este dinero, yesterday when I spoke to him I wanted to tell him if he was ok with $$$ if he needed to borrow but stopped myself cause i'm not in the position to let people borrow from me. Now here I am giving it up.

People i'm broke, i'm living on my saving that according to my coculations will last me another 3 months, after that i'm in trouble I will have to work at HEAVENLY BODYS cause I need cash money everyday!